I've been a busy fat bastard this month... my back is still rather messed up. Been doing physical therapy for it, not helping. I'm not really getting worse, just not better. I've built a website, a network, cleaned up the house a bit, sold my piano (sad about that actually), bought a big TV, put legal Windows 7 on 5 of my computers (why do I have 5?), and some other crap... I'm not in a great mood, I'm not in a bad mood, I'm just undecided about things. I've accomplished a lot this month and I'm doing okay, I think. And here's why...

CitiBank (ShitiGank) has decided to try to fuck me again, "we're raising everyone's rates!", from 6.9% to 14.99%. I told them no, they cannot do that to me. I bought nearly $3k worth of stuff, called them up and said I do not accept their terms. They can either work with me or get bent. The reason I bought the stuff, is because I'll not be able to use the card anymore. The card will supposedly remain at my current rape fees and such. I followed up the call with this email:

To continue to provide you with access to payment, I am adjusting the terms to my account as follows: I will continue to pay under the existing conditions and terms until my balance is paid in full. However, If my minimum payment goes up beyond existing terms or my APR goes higher, I will stop sending payment IMMEDIATELY and you shall not receive another penny! I sincerely reject your doing this to me after years of being loyal customer. I no longer care. Thanks for nothing, have a craptastic day, thanks for ruining mine. bastards...

There's no reason for anyone to put up with this shit, fuck the fucking fuckers! I got a canned reply later that day, they couldn't give a shit less. I'll pay on it until they decide to go back on their word yet again.

Thanksgiving day is Thursday, I'm sort of looking forward to that. I'm tired, my back hurts, going to bed.

Just a quick note to say I'm still alive... doing okay. Fried my back about 3 weeks ago, just barely getting back to the normal back pain that I experience, and am out doing what caused me to fry my back in the first place. I remember why I don't do physical labor. Anywho. That's about it... I built a site for a friend, was really hoping I'd get paid, but I don't see that happening any time soon. It's a rather nice site from what I hear from the uppities that I made it for. I still don't know who Al Unser is... here's the url, I mean urls:

http://www.forceexpress.info
http://www.forceexpress.infous
http://www.greenforceexpress.com
http://www.greenforceexpress.info
http://www.greenforceexpress.net
http://www.greenforceexpress.us
http://www.theforceexpress.com
http://www.theexpressforce.com

Wow, what a month. Without going into too much detail, I've been quite busy. I was able to recover the files (from the computer in my last post). Anywho, all this busy-busy has landed me with a fried lower back. Even with the added activity I haven't lost any weight and still have the same amount of insomnia... damn it! I am in slightly better spirits though, so it's all good. The weather has gone from hot to cold with a few hours of Fall-type weather to enjoy.

So, it's 2:30am and I'm having a coffee. Woke up with a severely dry throat and an aching back around 2, maybe I should have made some cocoa... with peppermint schnapps in it. Grant (Ward's son) was nice to me yesterday, guess pain is something he can relate to. Pain is something nearly everyone can relate to... except Ward, he is as healthy as a horse, figuratively speaking.

I'm still using Windows 7 RC and love it. The real W7 is on its way, might get it today, maybe tomorrow, maybe next week... The transition from Vista to W7 is minimal, it's nearly the same, as I've said before. I like 7 more than XP and more than Vista. I've been running it for about 6 months from beta to RC (release candidate). The first beta was craptastic, network issues.

I'm contemplating a nibble from this Oxycontin (or "Oxy-Cotton" as I hear it around here) here... have crackerpracter appointment at 9am. He electrified me yesterday and ultrasounded my back fat. I about died there on the table! I do feel better today than I did yesterday though, so it helped.

What a couple of weeks this has been! I had to replace the driver's front bearing on my popcan car, then noticed one strut was bent slightly in the front and one was blown in the back, that one had been since I got the car. I did the work myself, still cost nearly $600... but the car drives better and feels "safer" now.

I've been doing grunt work here and there to pay for this and feed my face, working on one now that's a junker. I had just gotten everything reinstalled software-wise... and was putting her stuff back on when the fucking thing started squeaking and fried my external hard drive, with her stuff on it! Then my monitor went blue... so it fried it too. Fucking piece of shit. Even though the external is fried, I'm able to extract nameless files from the thing... the extension is there, but the files are basically fuckered. She's getting a new computer, and some nameless files back. Damnit!

I'm tired as hell. I think I'll just let the recovery run on this crap all night...

Why is it news that a 9 year old can dial 911? Whoop-de-fucking-doo... the ho is literate. Back in my day, yeah I'm old, you had to look up the cops, ambulance, and fire department in the phone book... and then use a rotary dial phone to call them! you had to call each one separately too! Oh wow, this 9 year old kid can hit 3 buttons on a telephone...

Is nothing else happening in the world?

Going to Kirksville, MO today... 260 miles up... 260 miles home. Why? It's basically a favor for mother. I'm taking her sister back home. I'm not looking forward to it... roughly 4½ hours of driving each way. A couple days ago, I drove to the city to take a piece of crap electronic thingy back and to get groceries. I went into MicroCenter, the cashier was really cute, then she turned and there was this fish hook with a fake diamond hanging off the side of her nose... looked like a mountain climber on Mount Rushmore, I really just don't understand the appeal.

I also built a demo site for a potential customer. The site is rather plain. I don't see any point in sinking too much time into something that someone may not even want. I didn't seek him out, he found me. I don't like to do sites. Anywho... I've gotta leave in 30 minutes, not much else has happened. Life has been pretty boring and normal lately. Nothing to write home about. meh.

damn... I never wanted to see 230 again. I remember a time when I was happy to see 230, but I soon was 225... then 220. I'm going in the wrong direction and don't have what I need to get back on the treadmill or go for a hobble around town. I'm so very tired and I'm tired of being so tired, it's tiring! I don't get it... I've put maybe 2 miles on the treadmill in as many months! I used to do at least 3 miles a day, to lose weight and then a few miles a week to maintain. Hurt my feet, hurt my knees, took a break... never went back to it. *sigh*

I need to say g'bye to desserts after a meal... especially after a BIG meal! I did last night, but I shouldn't have eaten what I ate last night. I wasn't even hungry! I was getting ready to take a shower and go to bed when the family showed up and wanted me to join them for dinner... "no" isn't an answer they accept. I should have gotten just a salad or something, but I rarely turn down a good meal.

Again, Kansas has gone from one extreme to the other... from fucking hot to fucking cold. No happy medium, fuck Kansas! Yesterday it was 85°F (29.4°C), the day before that it was 95°F (35°C), and last night it went down to at least 55°F (12.8°C). I left the windows open last night, it be cold in here! Uncle Arthur is visiting (you may know him as arthritis)... at least I don't have Aunt Flo (figure her out for yourself) to deal with, she's a bitch!

Probably not going back to church, I don't care too much for "Boring Bob's" Boring Speech, it's not a sermon. He sounds like Al Gore and Reverend Lovejoy from the Simpson's, but not as smart and not as funny respectively. He just stands up there and drones on for 30 minutes. I don't feel Jesufied and I don't feel inspired to do anything but sleep. The rest of the church likes him, so he's the one... and I'm out. Hope they can run the sound system...

I have to go out to put dad's truck back together again. Was dropping the fuel tank yesterday to pull the fuel pump, the one we put in was DOA. Dad ran off to do something for mom in the middle of dropping the tank, fuel goes everywhere and I pulled my shoulder out. Neck and shoulder hurt like hell... it's going to be a wonderful day!

I may have overdrafted my account... well, I came damn close anyway. Something isn't getting paid in full so that I don't have overdraft charges. Second month in a row. Remember the ignorant spending spree? Yeah, that'll be with me for a while, a long while. Speaking of can't afford, my insurance doesn't cover yet another medication (surprise surprise)... it's only $128 a month for that one, it's a cheap one! My happiness and health isn't worth $1,500 a year though, not to me. If I paid for all the medications that I should be on and aren't, I'd spend $1,500 a month. One old bird I know has cancer, her insurance (same as mine) won't cover the chemotherapy, $15k a month! She can't afford that, so she's gonna die...

Anywho... nothing new in life, no surprise there either. Summer's almost over, temperatures are coming down, prices are going up, can't get decent night's sleep, and bullshit continues in its normal fashion. Will's phone got shut off for 3 days, I considered it a vacation. Since he got it turned back on, he's been calling non-stop again. Twat's twat... and that's that.

The 'rents are home. They drove non-stop from wherever the hell they were in the mountains of Colorado. I don't know why they do shit like that. Well, it's not "they", it's Dad. They're not young and dumb anymore, driving 12 hours straight isn't something their old asses should be doing anymore. Shouldn't have done it back then! Anywho, they got home about 3 in the morning. Idiots!

I have to go out one more time, take them drugs and bring back Syd. I stayed in bed until 9:30, no matter how I try, I can't sleep like everyone else I know. I was eaten alive by skeeters from my trip with Sarah and Charles a few nights ago, then eaten some more when I went to the 'rents last night... I think those were fleas. Fleas that I brought home with me, damn it. So now my house smells like bug poison again...

I don't know when I'm leaving, only know I don't want to. Slappy's mowing his lawn, I can see water on the grass from the downpour yesterday. I'm not going to mow wet grass, but this is the guy that I've seen mowing while it's actually raining. He's mow-happy! If it grows a nanometer, he's out there mowing it down! Lawn looks decent though...

I've shut down the server to save electricity. I think it maybe uses 30¢ a day, but it adds up to about $10 a month. I should shut down this computer at night, that saves a lot more. This computer is hungry for power. Most of my electric bill consists of using this computer. I still don't live within my means. Not to mention the spending spree I stupidly did over the last two months. My TV in here has gone purple. No, I only bought crap that really made no difference in my life.

I need to go to city to get groceries, most of the 4 lane highway is open now and 70 mph (112.7 km/h), finally. When I first moved here it was 55 mph (88.5 km/h) and 2 lane for 40 miles (64.4 km), then it went to 65 mph (104.6 km/h). The plans for a 4 lane had been running for 12 years, then all of a sudden they started doing it. What's funny is the year before they started building the 4 lane and tearing up the 2 lane, they resurfaced the 2 lane! Talk about a waste of money...

Last night I drove all the way home when I found out that I had left house keys in MY car AT the 'rents house... I seriously thought about kicking in a door that I've kicked in before... but I've got shit piled up behind it so it's nearly impossible to get in. I decided to drive back out to the farm and get my keys... 40 minutes I'll never get back... and I really needed to relieve myself, only making things worse.

This morning I didn't want to get up, but I managed to drag my fat ass out of bed. TV in this room didn't work this morning, it would come on but nothing else. The computer monitor did the same thing an hour later. The trip to the 'rents was uneventful, thank God. So was the trip to church, to thank God. Things went smoothly there for once, people asked about mom. The trip home was again, uneventful. I did forget my wallet though.

It's HOT outside... man it's hot! Again it's nearly 100°F (37.8°C) and the humidity is near 90%, so it's just miserable out there! In about 3 hours I'm going back out to the 'rents to let Mopey out for a bit. He'll go out, wander around, maybe piss on something and then lie down in the sun... like a moron. I'll drag him back in and go home for another 5 or so hours. Man, I'm tired!

I need to go back up to city again... nearly out of food. I can't get much, but I don't need much. Wait, yeah I do, I'm nearly out of food. I still can't get much due to my stupidity last month, and the month before. I only authorized my dumb ass to spend $1,000 ($1k that I didn't have) on the dentist... not the other $1k that I got while getting the loan. That money, I should have sent back. Meh, $1k is only 3½ months worth of food. I can eat lightly, haven't lost a single ounce! Must be stress fat!

Eventually some of my readers from the past will realize I'm posting publicly again... if you don't like my writing, my life, my style of writing, the fact that I bitch about shit, or whatever else you can think of, you don't have to read it. I'm not forcing anyone to read this crap. However, if you have advice worth giving, feel free to comment.

Nothing to do with ancient music, it's just hot, hot, hot! It's finally down to 95°F (35°C). It's got to drop another 10 degrees before I can throw the dog out and go home. Mum called, said the horse wants her dead and is stopping at nothing to try. It's the same horse that damn near killed me... so, they're coming home Tuesday, they say. They're going to give the damn horse a hysterectomy, they think that will fix her attitude. meh.

Have to do a third trip here in a bit. I'm hoping it drops enough to put Mopey back out. So far it's not looking like it's going to happen. It's down to 93°F (33.9°C) now. It's taking me a while to type this up. Fat man exhausted! Tomorrow morning is going to suck. Anywho, just bitching...

The "Cash For Clunkers" program has some requirements that piss me off. I've seen some very nice cars that are marked CFC (not chlorofluorocarbons), cars that are marked for death. Cars that have many good miles left on them. Cars and trucks that aren't clunkers. Cars that could be donated to poor mooks that don't have a car. Instead, they dump sodium silicate (liquid glass) into the engine to seize it and then it's off to the grinder to be shredded. What a waste! That just pisses me off.

Got tooth installed today, it's a little sore, okay very sore. Then fixed a cavity above that tooth. That's where the pain is. I think I bit my cheek somehow while it was numb. Ouch! Anywho, there's my tooth below... never mind the slobber. Mom called while I was in the chair getting my face drilled in, of course.

They called yesterday... not my home, not my cell, but their house. Was I there? Nope... missed them by 30 minutes. They're staying another 10 days or so. They may actually make it over 2 weeks. Mopey and the cats are still alive. The house smells like a cat lady lives there though... whew! It smelled like that already, just worse now. I had to drag Mopey into the house yesterday, it was just too hot for the stupid bastard to lay out there in the sun. What a moron.

Today I've got to go to the dentist and get my temporary crown replaced with a real one. Supposedly my new crown has my computer logo on it, heh nice. I got the thing in the mail that I've been waiting for, finally. Had to wait in line at the DMV in the city for at least an hour. They can't do things like that here, only basic driver's licenses. They made me change my address on my license too, and kept my old one! It was my only picture ID, now I have a crappy print out instead. You would think with current technology, I wouldn't have to wait two weeks to get my license.

I hope it's not too hot today. I don't want to have to make multiple trips to the 'rents house today with the dentist thing. The numby stuff always gives me a brain ache, not to mention the horrible tooth pain when the numby stuff wears off. To top it off, I've been up most of the night, so I'm going to be tired. Sun's coming up, I can see stuff on the cameras. Just light enough to see stuff and enjoy the low ISO grainy stuff.

My spending spree ended up poorly. I shouldn't have done it, but I did. As I stated, maybe, I borrowed extra money when I transferred my debt from one card to another. I borrowed more than I needed because I miscalculated what I needed to pay the dentist. Instead of repaying the extra with the extra, I blew through it like a... never mind, I spent too much. Needless to say, I bought shit I didn't need with money I didn't have. While I did get great prices on the shit, it's still shit I didn't need to begin with... and that's why I'm Shtoopid.

Today I headed out to mow the lawn... I didn't mow. Instead I tore down the back porch roof. The wood was mostly rotten, the fiberglass roof was too, I was tired of hearing it bang around every time the wind blew... also tired of picking up parts of it around the neighborhood. So, it's gone. Torn down, hauled to the dump... I'm exhausted. Tomorrow I must go to city, can't wait for the thing in the mail...

The 'rents must think they're Norwegian, they're vacationing again. They invited me, as I thought they would. I would have been in a car with 4 dogs, 4 farting smelly dogs. The 'rents aren't familiar with washing and brushing their animals much. Mom likes to feed the dogs things like chili-cheese fries the night before the trip... tell me she doesn't do this on purpose? Anywho, I declined to go. They used to stick me with watching all the dogs and cats when I'd decline, now they take 2 of the dogs with them.

"Mopey" dog is the one they leave behind. He's like the robot, Marvin, on The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. He's relatively easy to deal with. I also have to take care of 3 cats, but they're not like mine, I can leave food out for them and they won't have it gone before I get out of the driveway. With the other two dogs, I'm required to spend most of my time out there, I'm glad they take them on vacation now.

I visited Will yesterday, bought an old cell from him for mom, ate lunch... took dad's trash in, got garbage juice on me, NASTY! I loaded up his tools and took them back out to their house. They've been in my garage for over a year now, I don't foresee using them any time soon. Even though the porch is falling in... meh. The front fuel pump on his truck isn't working, I may fix that. If I fix it, I think I'll come back in with it and rip up the clothes line and rip the rest of the porch down and take the shit to the dump. May do that even if I don't fix the truck, it's a fucking piece of shit anyway, dad doesn't even remotely take care of the thing.

Well, it's been 2 weeks since my last post... I'm slacking. I stupidly bought a PS3 last week. For $300 (that I didn't really have to blow) I paid about $140 less than most people would, so I got a good deal... it even plays PS1 & PS2 games. I ordered a game from Amazon for $30 that Wally World sells for $60, again I got a good deal, but didn't really have the cash to do it. WTF?!

Paid the dentist nearly a grand to fix a few cavities and crown a tooth that the 'rents old dentist messed up. I don't know if I mentioned that I bought a netbook and named it DinkDink, again I got a good deal, but didn't have the cash for it. Yeah, I mentioned that because I got it in Arkansas, that was just over $500 with the upgrades and warranty.

The rents told me last week they're going on vacation for two weeks, at least they gave me a week's notice this time. Three cats and a dog to take care of. I hate it when they leave me with their dying animals, I'm always afraid one of them will keel over while they're gone... I've been lucky so far. They did offer to take me on vacation with them again, but they'd be taking the dogs, I just can't do it. I won't.

Instead of going on vacation and being miserable, I'll stay here and just be miserable! I plan on ganking the muh-truck and hauling his muh-tools back to his house, maybe yanking up the clothes line in the back yard, maybe ripping down the rest of the back porch roof that's all rotted and falling apart, and hopefully clean out the shed.

I'm still waiting for my CCP to show up with either a GFY or an OK. I've already typed up the appeal letter and mentioned that they flat out lied to me. I'm such a pessimist... or is that realist? For what I've paid in to that damn thing so far, I had better get it! Damned government. They probably read my blogs and think I'm crazy... meh. Anywho, I'm done blogging for today...

Today dad showed up, reluctantly, with Alan's piece of shit truck. My yard is nice and cleared. I'm sore! Didn't lose an ounce of weight either. Fat man tired. I installed 64 bit Windows 7 yesterday... I like it so far. Of course Dmonn is bitching about it non-stop... and blaming me for it not working. I honestly don't know why I go onto IRC anymore, I guess I love to be tortured and abused. Oh, I remember why I'm there, two reasons... 1. Dmonn's about the only person who talks to me... but I have Tina to talk to now. and 2. It's petty, but I'm holding the nick name Dave. As soon as my bots lose the nick, I'll reprogram them to ignore it. It's been about two months now.

It's 96.5° outside. I went outside about 9:00 this morning and it was 77°, within an hour it had reached 95°! I did finish what I was doing, but it damned near killed me. 2 hours later, I'm still cooling down. What was I doing you ask? Why I was cutting down tree limbs. Why was I doing that? Because I'm stupid! Needed to be done and I finally got around to doing it. So now there are tree limbs all over my yard, Dad's on his way in to help load it into the truck and haul it away.

I had just gone back out and moved all the branches to the front yard when Larry pulled in... I thought he would have brought the trailer, like any intelligent person would have, but no... and he bitched at me for not telling him an exact quantity instead of "a bunch of shit to haul off". It's not like I said "I have a few branches", a bunch of shit means just that! So he left and went home... my front yard is covered in tree parts.

These branches have been hanging to the ground for about a year now... I'm not the one who thought it was a good idea to do this in the middle of summer, but when Larry's in the mood to do something, I have to take advantage of that. His "next Saturday" thing rarely actually happens, especially on a Saturday! I really miss my truck, I couldn't have loaded this into the truck without cutting it up a lot more, but the little truck could pull a trailer.

I'm gonna go fix lunch, I'm about dead from the over-exertion and the heat, but if I don't cook it, I don't eat. I've taken 2 showers today, just to cool off... may have to make it a third! It's absolutely miserable outside! WTF was I thinking?!